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The Coming of the End of the World

Wearing my pillow as protective headgear, I was pinned to my couch. I winced at the seizure-inducing flickering light of the TV and my blanket was pulled around me like a quilted cocoon. It was the end of the world and I was making sure I was taking care of myself. I didn’t dare step […]

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I Said a Prayer; My Life Became a Living Hell

Six years ago I was driving to work in Chicago morning traffic, watching my car wipers monotonously and methodically push the sky’s tears off the wind shield – left and right, left and right, left and right…. It was one of those late fall gray, wet, windy and cold days, when all you want to […]

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In the Absence of Anxiety

My life recently has been pretty black and white. Either I’ve been living with intense anxiety or living in the absence of it. In the absence of anxiety lies a space in which life can go on. I’ve been living in this space for several days now, and I’m beginning to grow in confidence that […]

Relapse during Recovery from Mental Illness

Relapse during Recovery from Mental Illness

Up until a few weeks ago, my recovery from suicidality, depression and anxiety had been going smoothly. I was staying on the level, making slow but steady improvement. There had been some bumps in the road that caused me some anxiety, but nothing I couldn’t handle. If I’m being totally honest, I was probably drifting […]

Phone Call – “Stop crying! Moscow doesn’t believe in tears!!”

Phone Call – “Stop crying! Moscow doesn’t believe in tears!!”

Mom is having a major surgery in two days… I hang up the phone and sit quietly… Mom’s best friend is coming to be with her that day, Dad has already taken time off work, and my sister will be looking after Mom after she has been released from the hospital. I am on the […]

What Courage Looks Like – With Depression and Anxiety

What Courage Looks Like – With Depression and Anxiety

Courage. It means something different to each of us. Some people find courage in testing themselves, running a marathon or climbing a mountain. Some people find it in looking to God for help. Others sit there trembling and unsure, wishing they had the courage to do something about their present situation. When you’re a baby, […]

Don’t be Afraid – Fear

Don’t be Afraid – Fear

If you love to read, be sure to visit our beautiful library of books. You will find books on Buddhism, Yoga, Stress relief, anxiety and depression. Click Here to go and have a look 🙂 Fear is only a delusion of our intelligence. Fear becomes real only when we allow our Egos to persuade us […]

My Own Mountain To Climb

My Own Mountain To Climb

My own mountain to climb… Following a rural road through northern Virginia, my wife and I found the post in the ground that marked the trailhead. It had been about a month since I had quit my job, overwhelmed and unable to function due to issues with depression and anxiety. I had once been very […]

Over and Over Again – Lessons From Reccurrent Depression

Over and Over Again – Lessons From Recurrent Depression

Many people suffer from depression at some point in their lives. Some suffer from major depression. Some of those suffer from recurrent major depression, and on average will have four episodes during their lifetime. And some of those people suffer from chronic major depression, meaning they will suffer repeatedly throughout their lives. Based on the […]

Talking To Myself- Self-Talk In Our Lives

Talking To Myself: Self-Talk In Our Lives

Sitting in my therapist’s office and we’d spent most of the hour talking about how tangled up I was in the anxiety I’d been feeling. I told him how wound tight I had been feeling worrying about things that were going on in my life. He knows I’m a writer and he gave me a […]

The Worry Collector

The Worry Collector

We have books on anxiety, depression, yoga, Buddhism, stress and wellbeing at our library. Click Here to have a look 🙂 Hope you enjoy! Imagine, if you will, a man who lives next to a mighty river. Every morning, this man gets in his boat and paddles out to the middle of the water. There […]

The Illusions In The Stories We Tell Ourselves

The Illusions In The Stories We Tell Ourselves

We have a beautiful selection of books, Click Here for our library 🙂 Hope you enjoy! We all have stories that we tell ourselves about our lives. Stories about what we want for the future, stories about what kind of parent or spouse we want to be. There are stories about how we look at […]