Phone Call – “Stop crying! Moscow doesn’t believe in tears!!”

Phone Call – “Stop crying! Moscow doesn’t believe in tears!!”

Mom is having a major surgery in two days… I hang up the phone and sit quietly… Mom’s best friend is coming to be with her that day, Dad has already taken time off work, and my sister will be looking after Mom after she has been released from the hospital. I am on the […]

Why Write about Mental Illness So Much?

Why Write about Mental Illness So Much?

Why do I write about mental illness so much? It’s an unsettling, unnerving and uncomfortable topic. We’re talking about people who have problems with their brains here. We’re talking about problems that don’t have any outwardly visible physical symptoms here. Most importantly, we’re talking about people we all know here. The National Institute of Mental […]

What If? Overcoming Self-Doubht

What If? Overcoming Self-Doubt

What if I can’t do it? That’s what she said to herself. Every time she set herself a goal, every time she pushed herself, every time she tried. I have done this before, she’d say. I should be able to do it again. But it’s hard. What if I can’t? It’s going to hurt, it’s […]

Letter to a Teenager Suffering from Depression

Letter to a Teenager Suffering from Depression

I know you’re hurting and I know you’re suffering and I know things seem bleak. I know you think about killing yourself and I know that seems like a good answer sometimes. I wanted to kill myself, too, and that was just six months ago. We’re not the same age, but we’ve got more in […]

Simmering Just Beneath the Surface

Simmering Just Beneath the Surface

There are times when anxiety’s strong that no matter what you try to do, you just can’t avoid feeling it. The hair-standing-on-end, skin-crawling, nerves-ringing anxiety that represents our worst days. Then there’s anxiety that we can function through. It’s there, it’s making you aware, but you can still get on with your life. The nagging, […]

Having a Sense of Humor about Our Mental Illness

Having a Sense of Humour about Our Mental Illness

When we suffer from depression, anxiety or bipolar disorder, it can be really easy to get swallowed up by our disease and begin taking ourselves and our diagnosis very seriously. After all, for some of us, these conditions can make us fundamentally question our existence – it can be a life or death experience for […]

Reaching Out – An Act with Two Sides

Reaching Out – An Act with Two Sides

Putting your hand out – sometimes we do it when we need help. Sometimes we do it to pull someone else up. No matter the reason why we reach out, this act can make a profound impact on someone’s life. First we need to look at reaching out when we’re the one who needs help. […]

What Courage Looks Like – With Depression and Anxiety

What Courage Looks Like – With Depression and Anxiety

Courage. It means something different to each of us. Some people find courage in testing themselves, running a marathon or climbing a mountain. Some people find it in looking to God for help. Others sit there trembling and unsure, wishing they had the courage to do something about their present situation. When you’re a baby, […]

Counsellor and client, soft blur

Where I Stand Five Months After My Mental Health Crisis

Five months ago I was released from a psychiatric hospital after admitting myself for suicidal ideations. My mind and my life have revolved around my time there since then. It was a life-changing experience for me. It was a time when I realised that I had to put myself first, that I had to take […]

My Own Mountain To Climb

My Own Mountain To Climb

My own mountain to climb… Following a rural road through northern Virginia, my wife and I found the post in the ground that marked the trailhead. It had been about a month since I had quit my job, overwhelmed and unable to function due to issues with depression and anxiety. I had once been very […]

Over and Over Again – Lessons From Reccurrent Depression

Over and Over Again – Lessons From Recurrent Depression

Many people suffer from depression at some point in their lives. Some suffer from major depression. Some of those suffer from recurrent major depression, and on average will have four episodes during their lifetime. And some of those people suffer from chronic major depression, meaning they will suffer repeatedly throughout their lives. Based on the […]

Remember to Breathe

Remember to Breathe

Sometimes you just have to remember to breathe. That’s what I put as my Facebook status today. I probably should have given myself that advice about two weeks ago. I don’t think I’ve allowed myself to breathe in that long. It’s been a stressful time, preparing to file for bankruptcy is not a comfortable process, […]