I know you’re hurting and I know you’re suffering and I know things seem bleak. I know you think about killing yourself and I know that seems like a good answer sometimes. I wanted to kill myself, too, and that was just six months ago.
We’re not the same age, but we’ve got more in common than you might realise. We’ve both been hurt in ways that have left some scars on us. The things that have happened to us may be different, but the results are the same. We see the world differently than most people do. We look at the world through the lens of someone who’s thought about giving it all up. That changes what we see, what we think is important and what we do.
I want you to know you’re not alone. Having depression can make it feel like the world is crushing down on us, like every last thing we do – or don’t do – is the most important thing we’ve ever done. It can make us pull away from our friends and our family. Depression can make us feel small and insignificant and unimportant.
Depression is complicated and subtle. Little things are going to make the difference for you. Building on one little thing at a time will help you get through this. Celebrate every minute you have that you’re happy. Reward yourself for being healthy. You might not feel like you deserve that, but trust me, you do.
You are a person and that means you have value. You possess something that you can give back. You can make a difference – not only to yourself, but to others. The world would be a lesser place if you were not in it. You are important to me. You are important to a lot of people.
Getting better when you have depression is a long process. There’s no quick fix. It takes a combination of the right medication and good therapy to help you. These aren’t perfect sciences – we’re dealing with the human brain here and it’s going to take trial and error and time and patience.
I want you to be sensitive and compassionate for yourself. You’re dealing with things that are overwhelming to most adults. You haven’t had the time or the experiences that could help prepare you for this. And yet, here you are, fighting for your life. No, it’s not fair. But, yes, you can handle it.
This is going to be scary. You’re going to be afraid that the medicines, the therapy and the treatments are going to change you, but the changes that they make in you are small. You’re going to grow, that’s how you’re going to change through this. You’re going to learn what kind of person you are, how strong you are, and how resilient you are.
I wrote this because I care about you. I understand what you’re going through and I hope my experiences can help you. Be strong, be open, be honest. You will get through this. Believe in yourself. You will be happy again.
Author Bio – Jason has suffered from depression and anxiety for over twenty years. He can be contacted on his Facebook.